It’s amazing to what extent are people concerned with what will others think of the stuff they create and do. I keep hearing that same thing from the creators and those who yet don’t dare to call themselves so.
I wonder if there ever comes a point in creators’ journey when they stop doubting their work.
I’m fascinated by how deeply I’m in my comfort zone. I convinced myself that by moving to another country and making some other decisions only few can, I was living outside of my comfort zone. Yes, they were pretty scary at the time, but I can’t hold on to that one period of my life and use it to justify months of staying comfy and conforming to society’s ways.
For so long I thought I had nothing valuable to offer to the world. I couldn’t even start creating something because immediately after I get the idea, I would find a reason why it won’t be good enough. Or if I get to the point where I’ve created it, I would compare it with the work from other people and get discouraged to share it with the world.
After years of filling my head with stories of not being creative and good enough to pursue a path different than the one society imposes, my whole being was unhealthy. I didn’t feel my body was alive and my mind felt like a container full of fog. I began to realize nothing will help me get out of that place, no amount of money or business titles. The only solution was to start living how I was supposed to – by creatively expressing myself and helping others.